Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Baring my soul

It is almost midnight and I have just finished dusting every visible (and not-so-visible) surface in my living room. Bear's toys are neatly lined up on their appropriate shelves, her crayons are actually in the crayon bucket, and all of her Disney DVD's are in alphabetical order. Why? Because we are leaving for No-Man's-Land, PA in a few days and the dog sitter will be staying at our house while we are gone. Last time, she brought her own vacuum.

I am also awake and overwhelmed and while cleaning is usually as comforting as a root canal to me, tonight it is the one thing I have a modicum of control over.

First, Bear is sick. She has been plagued by ear infections practically since birth and she's been gulping amoxacillin for dessert again for about a week now. Last night she woke up at 2am screaming and when I touched her she felt as though she were on fire. Her temperature was 101 (Fahrenheit for all of you who now think that my child suddenly imploded) and rose to 103 by this afternoon despite Tylenol and a cool shower. The pediatrician isn't too concerned - he seems to think it's this enterovirus that is going around, causing high fevers and lethargy for up to a week in some kids - but Bear is just not herself. I'm trying not to sound like a hysterical new mom but I'm a hysterical new mom.

Secondly, we lost my mother-in-laws digital camera. I feel like crap, even though I have every intention of purchasing a replacement. Our digital camera is about 3 years old (ancient, I know) and is in desperate need of an upgrade. We borrowed hers when we went to meet our new nephew for the first time on Wednesday and by all conclusions, left the camera in the park. I'm going to hang lost signs in the park tomorrow, but really, what are the chances? It wouldn't be such a big deal if the family reunion were not this upcoming weekend. Her particular camera is discontinued, so we're bidding on ebay for the replacement, no chance of having it in time for the weekend. I'd just go to Target and pick out something else, except her sister bought the camera for her for Christmas... We haven't told her yet either, which makes me feel even more like dirt.

And last, and perhaps most difficult of all, things have been rocky between Andrew and I for the past few weeks. I'm pretty sure we're going to make it through this, but it's a sad, lonely feeling when you are constantly at odds with your best friend. It makes everything else less. Like wearing a pair of sunglasses that make even the sunniest day seem overcast and cloudy. I'm hoping this weekend away is good for us, 12 hours in a car together can really only go one of two ways.

8 comments:

Tammy said...

I hope things work out for you and yours. Hope your little one gets better soon and I know what it is like being at odds with your best friend. Hubby and I just finished our rough patch and the sun is shining once again.

Enjoy your time away and things can only get better.

Thanks for popping by my blog, take care and stay safe.

Cass said...

{{{{big hugs}}}}

NH Knitting Mama said...

Aw man, that stinks about the camera! I hope it works out well.

Lisa said...

{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}

I feel your pain with Bear. The Munchkin had the same issues until she was four or five and finally grew out of them. It does get better.

Patience and communication work best between partners, so speak and listen without using acusational words or phrases.

The camera situation sucks, but I know that you will come out okay!

Chin up. Get sleep. Enjoy the vacation!

Cathi said...

Thanks so much for visiting my blog and the nice words about my quilts. You sound like you are having a bad week. Big hugs from Ireland. I really hope things will get better soon, I've been there!

Alaina said...

Ohh..sometimes Life really sucks, doesn't it?

{{{{Hugs}}}}

I hope all gets better in your life soon... prayers to you...

Laurie said...

I hope your trip goes well. Have you ever considered (or heard of) ear candles? My second son was plagued with ear infections constantly as an infant and toddler- so much they were talking tubes. My friend mentioned ear candles and they sounded extremely weird and new agey, but I was desperate. We've never had an ear infection again- or at least not a bad one that needed antibiotics- the ear candle dries it out quickly. Most natural food stores or even GNC carry them. Try it on yourself first so you can see it doesn't hurt just makes a crackling sound.
I hope you and hubby make it through your rough patch quickly- we had ours about 2-3 years into marriage (after our first child was born) and it was horrible, but the other side is WONDERFUL!

Miss Me said...

i haven't been by for a while so am getting caught up - that "life" thing. i hope that everything went okay. rough patches are hard. we've had more than our share. when you really can't stand him, lock yourself in a room and knit. if you're REALLY MAD use acrylic. if you're REALLY HURT cashmere or silk...